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My 12:28AM New Years Thoughts
Happy New Year!!! May 2021 be a beautiful adventure!!!
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So I get weird at New Year's. I do.
Hello lovelies. This is not a full episode really. I'm just touching base because it's the New Year and bye bye 2020, and all the shit you decided to throw at us this year, I know some people have been very blessed. I, myself and my family have been in that category. My husband's been working from home, I've been able to stay home and take care of our daughter. We've been healthy, we've been very blessed out of all of the chaos and nonsense that's gone on, the restrictions that have gone into place for our protection and our safety. The reality is my family has been very blessed throughout this entire year. So, when I say Good riddance 2020 it's more a general overall, this year has been a fucking shit show of all the things that have gone on in the world. So yes, from that perspective, it's gonna be good that it's gone. But we also don't know what 2021 is really going to bring us.
Hopefully, we have enough hope and joy that we've been storing up that we want to pour into this year. And one thing that I've really had to come to realize is, I get weird at New Year's. I do. I get really weird at New Year's. I am someone who has a very difficult time living in the now. And today. Today was no exception.
I feel like I was in I gotta clean everything so that I'm not cleaning tomorrow on New Year's Day, because I'm taking the day off from that because obviously, as a mom, you got a day off from cleaning, right? Every kid knows that you don't make a mess on New Year's Day, cuz that's mommy's one day off. Bullshit. But I decided to put all these high expectations on getting all these things cleaned and organized and like clearing out a whole lot of things and making a fresh start. And then a lot of anxiety on Oh, I would have really liked to have like, planned something special for my family. I didn't even get any decorations. We weren't gonna have Angelica stay up till midnight. Now, I think part of that wanting to plan something was because as a child, I grew up in a family that always had a big New Year's party. I do not remember a time in my childhood where I was not in a big celebration for New Year's. The whole family would get together usually at my grandparents apartment in the Bronx we bring in like every Puerto Rican you can think of, we'd be jam packed there music blaring alcohol going all over the place. Three years old, of course you get champagne at New Year's, obviously. It was just what we did. And then I look at my beautiful, quiet little condo in Florida with my husband and my three year old daughter and I'm like, I got nothing. There's no decorations. We planned no celebration for this. I tell her today, today's a very special day because we're ending one year we're going into another and she seemed excited. Then she lost interest an so did I. And the entire day became about me trying to like get her to like do something else while I tried to get my cleaning done. Because I needed to clear out the old and get ready for this brand new year. And putting all that pressure on when really all I did was bypass any beautiful moment I could have spent with her playing, trying to prepare for what? It is just another day. If we're lucky to get it.
And that's the thing like we do not know how much time we have, we have no idea if tomorrow is even going to come and yet we plan and plan as if it's going to happen. And yes, we need to because you know what if it doesn't, and we have no plan, and we're just walking around aimlessly with no idea, I'm sure we could find joy in that, but if there are things that we would love to achieve in our life that only happens by setting goals and taking action to achieve it. But it can't be at the expense of the present moment. And I feel like my disappointment at this new year. So besides the fact that we were watching a movie, and then we went to one of the apps like NBC or something to stream on our Roku, and there was a delay. So I'm facetiming with my family and they're all like counting down 10 nine I'm like, we still have another minute and a half to go like why are people counting? So I also feel like I missed New Year's. But again, maybe I needed to have that delay in our streaming to be like, Tai, focus on what's happening right now. At New Year's, you are never so stuck in your phone that you miss kissing your husband and hugging him and saying Happy New Year baby. And I missed that. I was so stressed about the fact that we were not on the right countdown, I missed one of the most special moments that I've had with this man for over a decade now. I missed so many wonderful moments I could have played with my daughter today, because I was stressed about getting things ready for the future. I never really do New Year's resolutions and by saying never do a new year's resolutions, anyone who says, Oh, I'm my new year's resolution is that I don't make new year's resolutions anymore is full of it. Because we all have some things that we would like to work on, we would like to have happen. So one thing that I want to work on for this year, call it a resolution call whatever the fuck you want, I don't care, is to be not just more mindful of the present, because I can be very aware of the present moment and still choose to live through that moment with my head up my ass in the past or the future. But to be mindful of the present moment and make the choice to be fully present and connected to it. That's what I want to work on. So for everyone out there going into this new year, whatever your resolutions are, or if you don't even buy into any of that nonsense, Let's all make the choice in finding joy in the world to be present with the moment at hand and truly connect to it with all of our senses. So let's raise a glass to this brand new year and making the most of every moment.
Much love to all of you. And I'll see you on the other side. Yes, season two will be happening sometime this month. next few weeks. Keep an eye out for it. Bye.
Happy New Year!!! May 2021 be a beautiful adventure!!!
Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/mfaparenting)
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Full Transcript
So I get weird at New Year's. I do.
Hello lovelies. This is not a full episode really. I'm just touching base because it's the New Year and bye bye 2020, and all the shit you decided to throw at us this year, I know some people have been very blessed. I, myself and my family have been in that category. My husband's been working from home, I've been able to stay home and take care of our daughter. We've been healthy, we've been very blessed out of all of the chaos and nonsense that's gone on, the restrictions that have gone into place for our protection and our safety. The reality is my family has been very blessed throughout this entire year. So, when I say Good riddance 2020 it's more a general overall, this year has been a fucking shit show of all the things that have gone on in the world. So yes, from that perspective, it's gonna be good that it's gone. But we also don't know what 2021 is really going to bring us.
Hopefully, we have enough hope and joy that we've been storing up that we want to pour into this year. And one thing that I've really had to come to realize is, I get weird at New Year's. I do. I get really weird at New Year's. I am someone who has a very difficult time living in the now. And today. Today was no exception.
I feel like I was in I gotta clean everything so that I'm not cleaning tomorrow on New Year's Day, because I'm taking the day off from that because obviously, as a mom, you got a day off from cleaning, right? Every kid knows that you don't make a mess on New Year's Day, cuz that's mommy's one day off. Bullshit. But I decided to put all these high expectations on getting all these things cleaned and organized and like clearing out a whole lot of things and making a fresh start. And then a lot of anxiety on Oh, I would have really liked to have like, planned something special for my family. I didn't even get any decorations. We weren't gonna have Angelica stay up till midnight. Now, I think part of that wanting to plan something was because as a child, I grew up in a family that always had a big New Year's party. I do not remember a time in my childhood where I was not in a big celebration for New Year's. The whole family would get together usually at my grandparents apartment in the Bronx we bring in like every Puerto Rican you can think of, we'd be jam packed there music blaring alcohol going all over the place. Three years old, of course you get champagne at New Year's, obviously. It was just what we did. And then I look at my beautiful, quiet little condo in Florida with my husband and my three year old daughter and I'm like, I got nothing. There's no decorations. We planned no celebration for this. I tell her today, today's a very special day because we're ending one year we're going into another and she seemed excited. Then she lost interest an so did I. And the entire day became about me trying to like get her to like do something else while I tried to get my cleaning done. Because I needed to clear out the old and get ready for this brand new year. And putting all that pressure on when really all I did was bypass any beautiful moment I could have spent with her playing, trying to prepare for what? It is just another day. If we're lucky to get it.
And that's the thing like we do not know how much time we have, we have no idea if tomorrow is even going to come and yet we plan and plan as if it's going to happen. And yes, we need to because you know what if it doesn't, and we have no plan, and we're just walking around aimlessly with no idea, I'm sure we could find joy in that, but if there are things that we would love to achieve in our life that only happens by setting goals and taking action to achieve it. But it can't be at the expense of the present moment. And I feel like my disappointment at this new year. So besides the fact that we were watching a movie, and then we went to one of the apps like NBC or something to stream on our Roku, and there was a delay. So I'm facetiming with my family and they're all like counting down 10 nine I'm like, we still have another minute and a half to go like why are people counting? So I also feel like I missed New Year's. But again, maybe I needed to have that delay in our streaming to be like, Tai, focus on what's happening right now. At New Year's, you are never so stuck in your phone that you miss kissing your husband and hugging him and saying Happy New Year baby. And I missed that. I was so stressed about the fact that we were not on the right countdown, I missed one of the most special moments that I've had with this man for over a decade now. I missed so many wonderful moments I could have played with my daughter today, because I was stressed about getting things ready for the future. I never really do New Year's resolutions and by saying never do a new year's resolutions, anyone who says, Oh, I'm my new year's resolution is that I don't make new year's resolutions anymore is full of it. Because we all have some things that we would like to work on, we would like to have happen. So one thing that I want to work on for this year, call it a resolution call whatever the fuck you want, I don't care, is to be not just more mindful of the present, because I can be very aware of the present moment and still choose to live through that moment with my head up my ass in the past or the future. But to be mindful of the present moment and make the choice to be fully present and connected to it. That's what I want to work on. So for everyone out there going into this new year, whatever your resolutions are, or if you don't even buy into any of that nonsense, Let's all make the choice in finding joy in the world to be present with the moment at hand and truly connect to it with all of our senses. So let's raise a glass to this brand new year and making the most of every moment.
Much love to all of you. And I'll see you on the other side. Yes, season two will be happening sometime this month. next few weeks. Keep an eye out for it. Bye.